Sweeter than YOO HOO!
It was 5 years ago today that I received the most wonderful gift in my life. Today is my daughter’s 5th Birthday! 5 Years ago on this day, my life changed in so many ways. I saw an honest to goodness miracle take place, as this sweet little girl appeared before her mother and I. I was so happy that both mom and daughter were both ok. I was scared to even touch or hold her she was so tiny, so delicate, and so beautiful. The plethora of emotions I felt at that moment, crying because I was so happy, finally being able to relax because both mom and baby were healthy and ok. I remember the nurse telling me that it was ok for me to pick her up, and feeling like the king of the world at that very second she was in my arms. Then as everything calmed down in the hospital room, I walk down to an empty hall way sat on the floor all alone crying and giving thanks to the big man for blessing my life with such a beautiful, healthy, amazing little girl. Watching her grow and become such a smart, happy and beautiful little girl is one of the greatest joys a human being can have. But in the 5 years since that wonderful day, a lot of things changed in my life. Some very positive things happened but also some tough things came along too. None harder than having your life turned inside out as what you knew as your family somehow falls apart leading to divorce. Not just divorce but having your daughter and her mother move away. So far away, that my daughter and I can’t be together whenever she or I want to. And today is one of those days. Being 1,500 miles away from her on her 5th birthday was not part of the plan for me. She’ll be blowing out 5 candles, eating some cake, opening her presents, and feeling so big turning five and I can’t be there to see it. AND THAT JUST REALLY SUCKS! Divorce sucks in so many ways but the worst part of it is how something you would never choose to have change in your life and would do anything in your power not to have happen, happens. You lose the chance to be with your kids everyday and see those smiles, here those new words, watch a movie with them, or just be silly and sit on the floor coloring. So I hope you can all forgive me if I use my Blog page today to say Happy Birthday to my big girl KYLA LYNN. Daddy love’s you more than anything and I’m so proud of you. I can’t wait to come see you very soon. Kisses and big bear hugs,DAD EE O!